“Throwing it all away” offered us a medical and life crash course in human beings’ evolution and growth. Meredith Grey’s voiceover sounded like a modified version of the song “You can’t always get what you want”. Her narration on what we really need in life to grow, to survive, to be happy and to thrive, was shown through the eyes of none other than Dr. Arizona Robbins herself. The writers made an excellent choice of character. They painted a distinguishable picture of a life ‘before’ and ‘after’ a major traumatic event, how much and what we need to be happy again. Any other character could be easily used for the purpose of the episode, but none of them have ever fully and truthfully fitted in the description of “happy”, “cheery” and “perky”. None of them have ever gone from extreme happiness to extreme darkness. This is exactly what makes Dr. Robbins unique and different as opposed to the other doctors, who are all kinds of shades of dark and twisty and cranky and grumpy. And then there is this seeker of happiness and light among the darkish doctors who goes by the name Dr. Callie Torres.
What’s a bad day look like for a surgeon with slightly complicated personal life? Can the good be found in a bad day?
Dr. Robbins and the new day started off on the wrong foot- wet prosthesis (because Sofia has played with mommy’s fake leg) and a pile of medical cases at the hospital (a kid with intestine complications, a dumpster baby with a heart problem and a young girl with legs problem). Add to this a suspended Paeds surgeon, a visit to the HR office plus a personal life drama on the side and there it is, the bad day is ready to bloom and flourish. What’s more, the day to be even more bittersweet, a pinch of gurney accident was thrown into the mix when Stephanie ran over Robbins with a gurney unintentionally or maybe it was some sort of a cold revenge on behalf of Leah Murphy. Whatever it was, the incident left Dr. Robbins with a broken fake leg, a blister, a frequent change of the bandage because of the uncomfortable hospital prosthesis and a neat squeak.
However, even among the chaos there is some order.
Alex came up with a genius idea on the intestine kid. Since he was suspended from doing surgery, Bailey and Meredith took over, the procedure went smoothly and the surgery was successful. Cristina, backed up by Shane, saved the dumpster baby’s life (dubbed Oscar by her). Later, Cristina and Arizona shared quite a moment of openness. This was one of the best scenes in the episode and probably a scene that many of us have been waiting for since season 9- Cristina and Arizona had a small talk about the plane crash and their nightmares- very raw, simple and straightforward talk that doesn’t need much explanation. Dr. Yang even showed some competence in speaking Arizona “YAY” and didn’t protest when Arizona reached for her hand and squeezed it in a friendly and supporting manner.
However, the medical case that stood out and brought some realisations and truths to both Callie and Arizona, was the young girl who wasn’t able to walk. A simple consult on the patient turned into a recommendation for a double leg amputation. The amputation came up as an option while Arizona was listening carefully to the girl’s words about her constant pain and suffering. The girl painted a very colourful picture with words what Arizona’s life would’ve looked like even if there weren’t any complications and her leg hadn’t been cut off. So, when Arizona suggested the amputation, she and Callie engaged in a mild professional disagreement and butted in heads on a couple of occasions.
Bottom line, Callie Torres still can’t forgive herself for breaking the promise to Arizona not to cut off her leg. She still keeps fighting for her patients as if amputation has never existed, doesn’t exist and will never exist. Callie’s personal inner fight projects over her patients. Luckily for her, her wife is there to catch her and set her free from her fears and doubts.
But a medical case can’t go smoothly on Grey’s Anatomy unless some personal life drama is added. In brief, when Dr. Robbins visited the HR office turned out that the complaint (filed by Leah) wasn’t against her. The target was Dr. Torres. Of course, when Callie heard about it didn’t like it at all and she let it be known by unleashing a bit of her temper.
While Callie was being questioned by the HR lady, Arizona had to do the young girl’s surgery. And surprisingly or not under the sounds of “Tainted Love” (what an irony) Leah Murphy entered the scrub room and a few lines were exchanged- Arizona apologised and defended her wife but Murphy stood up for herself. Like it or not, the young resident had a point there.
Later, back at home, the evening didn’t seem to be a quiet one neither for Callie not for Arizona. Callie was furry over the disciplinary report but Arizona didn’t let the chance to pass her by and started one of her famous speech. A speech that was even more eyes opening for Callie.
Callie and Arizona’s past will always be there. A fresh start doesn’t mean that what they leave behind ceases to exist completely. The fresh start, the new beginning means how to learn to be happy again, to see what matters the most, how to appreciate what they have despite the losses and the mistakes. As Arizona said it “I don’t need much to be happy. I don’t even need two legs to be happy. But I need you. I need Sofia and I need you…” Learning in life is an ongoing process. Dr. Robbins have been learning all this time how to fit in her new life through sacrifices and giving things up. Callie, too. Thankfully, Arizona has a wife who likes to push walls even when pushing further is not an option.
Going back to the question where the good is in a bad day- a bunch of kids will live, supportive and caring co- workers at work, a loving wife, who knows how to fight and a pair of wheelie sneaks which can bring smiles and laughter. That’s the good. This is the happiness.
Meanwhile in the hospital:
- Alex suspended from doing surgeries; Jo got kicked out of Paeds to experience the joy in Trauma;
- April was followed by a stalker kidney guy (A patient’s friend);
- Meredith gossiped with Cristina about Owen’s recent break-up with Emma;
- Stephanie served justice with a gurney;